You know what's crazy about Motherhood? Well...besides everything, of course! The ridiculous emotional rollercoaster. One minute, you're so happy and proud, riding on the highest peak---the next, you're plunging downward in a spiral of sappiness and tears that not even Ben & Jerry can pull you out of! At least, that's how I felt yesterday when my baby turned three. On one hand, I'm totally in awe and taken back by how incredibly grown up he's become, the little personality he has developed is just so uniquely him, and I truly cannot believe how smart and affectionate he is! And I'm beyond proud. Then, on the other hand, I feel like I've just blinked and the last three years have literally just flown by. I feel like I missed out on everything! And I was here for it all! But I missed it, right!? I mean, he can't be THREE!!! And then---the Ugly. Cry. Ugh, Motherhood has turned me into an emotional Hot Mess.
Look at that cute little grumpy old man face he had! I stare at this photo and I think that was literally just yesterday. So how can he possibly look like this?
I have to take a step back, put Ben & Jerry's back in the freezer, and remind myself that these three years may have flown by, but we've done so much together---HJ and I.
This year we went from barely talking much and showing marginal interest in most things to talking up a storm, beginning our "threenager" attitude (for sure!), and choosing a few beloved favorite things (his Blankie, E.E. [the beloved Lovey], reading books, Thomas and Friends, playing with guns, and, of course, being outside all the time. He now loves to look at pictures in books, where before, he wouldn't even touch one. He is obsessed with all things train related, but Thomas is truly his whole heart. He somehow turns almost every toy he possibly can into a gun and my husband has even "toddler-proofed" a couple screwdrivers that he carries around and calls his "Buddy". He is adventurous and loves to play outside. Swinging and bouncing in the bounce house are his two very favorite activities and he just adores watching others mow the lawn (and try to help himself).
We've officially learned all of our basic colors and can count up to 12 (after that he gets the numbers out of order). He recognizes many animals (thanks to countless zoo trips) and can identify most construction machines (thanks, Blippi!).
But the greatest adventure we've had this year has been the stronger bond we've connected now that Lexi is in preschool three days a week. I get random hugs, head lays in my lap, the sweetest "I love you, Mommy"'s, and the hand holding, just to ensure I'm still there next to him. My heart clenches thinking about when he gets older, that bond will shift and change again, but until then, this Mommy is gonna relish in these moments and I am going to get as much Huddie-Time in as I can.
Three years ago, my life was forever changed by this gem of a boy, and I cannot wait to see what the next year of our life God will bless us with.
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| Hudson James -- 10/20/2015 @ 2:12 PM | 8 lbs. 1 oz. | 21" |
I have to take a step back, put Ben & Jerry's back in the freezer, and remind myself that these three years may have flown by, but we've done so much together---HJ and I.
This year we went from barely talking much and showing marginal interest in most things to talking up a storm, beginning our "threenager" attitude (for sure!), and choosing a few beloved favorite things (his Blankie, E.E. [the beloved Lovey], reading books, Thomas and Friends, playing with guns, and, of course, being outside all the time. He now loves to look at pictures in books, where before, he wouldn't even touch one. He is obsessed with all things train related, but Thomas is truly his whole heart. He somehow turns almost every toy he possibly can into a gun and my husband has even "toddler-proofed" a couple screwdrivers that he carries around and calls his "Buddy". He is adventurous and loves to play outside. Swinging and bouncing in the bounce house are his two very favorite activities and he just adores watching others mow the lawn (and try to help himself).
We've officially learned all of our basic colors and can count up to 12 (after that he gets the numbers out of order). He recognizes many animals (thanks to countless zoo trips) and can identify most construction machines (thanks, Blippi!).
But the greatest adventure we've had this year has been the stronger bond we've connected now that Lexi is in preschool three days a week. I get random hugs, head lays in my lap, the sweetest "I love you, Mommy"'s, and the hand holding, just to ensure I'm still there next to him. My heart clenches thinking about when he gets older, that bond will shift and change again, but until then, this Mommy is gonna relish in these moments and I am going to get as much Huddie-Time in as I can.
Three years ago, my life was forever changed by this gem of a boy, and I cannot wait to see what the next year of our life God will bless us with.
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