Today's post is, perhaps, going to be a little deep. But, I promise you, I have a point to it.
To start; I was adopted by my wonderful parents. I've shared that before, but for those who haven't seen that post about me, I am sharing again. As an immigrant from South Korea, I always had a lot of insecurities about the way I looked. I didn't have blonde hair, my eyes were "funny" shaped, I was darker-complected, and on and on. I struggled with self-esteem and "fitting-in" with my peers from a
very early age. I had classmates pull on their eyes to mimic the shape of my own, I've had adults ask me where I'm from (as if it matters).
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Senior Promo in High School---this was maybe the most I'd smile; I didn't want to squint too much. |
I once had a boyfriend, in high school, who asked me if, after we were married, would I wear makeup to bed so I would wake up pretty. That was the final straw to cementing my fears that I wasn't beautiful on the outside.
Clearly, I thought,
I needed cosmetics to make me attractive! So, I never went out in public without makeup on. I was also depressed in high school---no doubt from a gamut of insecurities, stressors of growing pains, and my own toxic thought process.
After high school, I found a Direct Sales Company that I fell in love with. I learned about good skin care and I thought that maybe if I had good skin, I'd be more beautiful. It wasn't quite the right thought-process, but it started me on a better pathway. After learning more about our skin and self-care, I finally started to
like myself. I even started to
like myself sans makeup and felt much more comfortable with a clean face at home. I used a daily regimen, to ensure my skin looked its best, but I still used quality cosmetic products out and about.
It wasn't until I met my husband, in 2008, that I was able to truly grow more comfortable in my own skin. He was one of the first people who saw me without makeup on in my adult-life. But, he did so much more than that. My husband told me I was beautiful, but even better, he helped me to
believe that I was beautiful.
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It was THIS guy who helped me to learn my own definition of "beauty". |
It all started from the
inside, too. He saw all the amazing things that I was; kind, considerate, compassionate, intelligent, motivated, passionate, and capable of loving---not just others, but myself, too. I started to embrace what made me me. I started to see the qualities of who Trisha was comprised of and I began to really
love her. As I grew to love Trisha, an amazing transformation started. I became
confident. I knew who I was; and I knew who I wasn't. I no longer tried to hide who I was, but I embraced it. Instead of wishing I had blonde hair; I loved my thick, long shiny locks. Instead of hating my eye shape; I found how to love applying cosmetics in a unique way that others couldn't. No longer did I hate my darker-complected skin; I was the envy of other women who longed for a "permanent tan".
I continued to nurture my newfound love of myself and now that I was secure and happy with who I was, I wanted to take care of that person from the inside out. I learned more about skincare, about mental health, about a happy spirit. I also learned my Why.
I wanted to help others to become their best selves. I wanted to inspire others to take care of their very best
them so they could perhaps inspire their
others to do the same. I wanted to create a cycle.
Now, as a Hot Mess Mom who is lucky to wash her hair a couple times a week---I rarely leave the house
with makeup on. I
love my clean-face and I take care of it every day with
premium skincare and drinking lots of water (
#BeTheSparkleWaterChallenge!) I
love to make others feel good and I will do that by writing a handwritten note in a handmade note card using some simple
paper, ink, and stamps.
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Happy #MakeuplessMonday!!! |
Being Makeup-less on Monday is so much more than great skin; it's my journey to loving me for who I am---inside and out. I am confident enough in myself to
be makeup-less today. I am empowered to share my story with others. It hasn't been easy being me, but guess what? I'm sure it wasn't easy being you, either.
Please remember: no matter what obstacles you have had thrown at you---
you are beautiful. Beauty, to me, is NOT skin-deep. Beauty, to me, is NOT being makeup-less.
Beauty, to me, is feeling confident in who you are so you be the you that you are meant to be.
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I feel my absolute BEST now, both inside and out. Sure I still wear cosmetics, but I use them to enhance my beauty. Not hide behind a mask. |
I hope you are feel beautiful today and every day. I hope that you have your own personal Makeup-less Monday!
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